Hello, beloved lights and souls. How is everybody out there integrating these intense energies? I'm experiencing a really profound clarity of inner alignment, where it's falling more and more into the lived embodiment of love that I am and that you are. We all are this at the center of ourselves. I'm Joya, and this is That Mystic Podcast. And this is what we're diving deeply into this week. Enjoy the show. This morning in my meditation, I realized that everything shifts in you and in your life when you say yes to your purpose instead of running from it. And what do I mean by that? Our truest self is our light. And what we've been living our life from is our false self, the conditioned self that was constructed during childhood. And agreements were made with the self that are very difficult to break because they weren't made on a level of consciousness. They were made at the level of frequency. And that frequency is stored within the nervous system. The work of Dr. Candace Purt, she has a fantastic, fantastic talk. And I suggest you listen to it. And it's called The Body is the Unconscious Mind. And I found this work three years ago, and it profoundly shifted my course. Because up until that time, I was still really intellectualizing my healing, my spirituality. And I wasn't, it wasn't embodied. It wasn't in my nervous system. And so I was still doing things that would sabotage my success, that would sabotage. And by success, I don't mean external success. I mean internal alignment. That's what I define as truly successful. It's internal alignment. When you operate from that place, you are naturally successful because success follows alignment in whatever definition that is for you, right? So you get it. So I've been in this profound awareness of that gap in me is very, very, very narrow now between who I am inside and what I do outside. It's all beginning to completely align. And when it doesn't, it feels incredibly, shockingly uncomfortable to lie, to be untruthful. I just have this experience where I lied to somebody recently. And then I was like, why did I lie about that? And I really sat with that energy until I realized that it was like this little girl agreement inside of me that if I sense I'll get in trouble, and I'm putting this in quotations, that it's easier and simpler just to lie your way out of it. It was very unconscious. But that was the feeling of it when I sat with it and figured out what it was, the feeling of it. And so I made it right with the person that I lied to. I told her that I lied to her. And I apologized. And then I forgave myself for it. And because what she does with it on her end is her business. That's not my business. That's not my responsibility. And this is what it comes down to is this inner sense of responsibility and sovereignty. And to me, they go hand in hand because for me to be in my sovereign being, that means nobody else can have control over my spirit. And that includes my own ego, that includes myself. So this sense of responsibility says, I don't, it's it's an inner feeling when you know you're not right with yourself. So going back to the work of Dr. Candace Purt, when I realized one day, because I was very frustrated with my own self-sabotage, and I said, Why am I doing this? I don't understand. Everything is going great. This was before Weston passed. Everything is going great. There's nothing major, no major upsets in my life. So why am I doing this? And then the voice dropped in that I get that wise voice. And it said, Maybe the body, I said, maybe the problems can't be solved at the level of your mind. Maybe your body is your unconscious mind. And when I had that thought, it kind of had a little click for me inside. And so I looked it up. I Googled it, and sure enough, I found a talk by Dr. Candace Perth that changed my life. So I began to start to do deeper inner work until I literally felt a pop, a click, where a piece of my consciousness came on board. Now, yours might not be that disconnected. Mine was severely disconnected because of so much childhood trauma. And so it took a long time and a lot of work for that innocent, pure aspect of myself to feel safe enough to make its appearance again in my body. And it wasn't like it was out of my body, it was that I disconnected from it internally. Because that piece of you is the piece of the divine and it lives inside of your heart. But my heart was closed, it was numb. I'd had no access to my spiritual intelligence in my heart. And that required a lot of work to get there. But without exception, every lived mystic, living and past, including Mary Magdalene, they did this kind of inner work. Weston told me that we create the conditions in our life that become the conditions for our awakening. And so, in that light of what I just shared, it's like if I really wanted to wake up in this lifetime to profound love, then the best way to do that is to set up conditions where I am not loved, where there is unlove represented everywhere. And to go through that and learn to love anyway, to learn to love yourself especially, anyway, to love other people authentically is the spiritual work. Because it's increasing this inner capacity. And so you can look at your own life to see what the patterns are that have repeated for you that are the conditions for your awakening. It could be relationship, financial, health, abandonment, sickness. There's so many things that are the conditions for your awakening. And they're not pleasant in this life, in this physical incarnation, rather. This isn't life. But in this realm of creation and reality that we live within, we feel it and it seems so real. It seems so real. But it's just like a dream feels real sometimes. And I'm sure you've had those experiences where your dreams feel extremely real, like they're happening. And life is the same way to our soul. That chose to come here for this experience of discovering how to love anyway, through whatever the conditions are, that are the conditions for our awakening. And that's the game. That's the whole point of life. To love anyway. Once you get there, it seems like it wasn't hard at all. That's the strange thing. Even though I can look back and put myself at points in time and know how hard it was. Once you get to this level of awareness, you realize that's not who you are. It's not your identity. And you create so much spaciousness in you to become a safe space for yourself to handle all of life's experiences. Whether they're amazingly joyful or the deepest sorrow, that you have capacity for all of that experience. And I know for me, going through grief and awakening through it expanded capacities in me that I didn't even know I had, honestly. I didn't know I had them. I didn't know I had this much depth of love. But I know that grief is just a reflection of profound love. So grief, too, is love. Everything is love. And one thing that I do on a regular basis is listen to near-death experiences on YouTube. And they always have such beautiful stories. And so even though they're all so different, and I asked God, I was like, why are all the stories so different? And God said, it's so you will have a beautiful transition. So, like all these near-death experiences are our own ultimate dream of our, of a reality we project in our mind, in our soul, and our heart and our beingness. When I say mind, I'm talking about being a part of the one mind, the one consciousness. And so when that gets created, what gets what's beyond that, when you go to permanent, the permanent crossover from that threshold, and you don't come back, nobody knows what that is, except through channeled messages and visions that people have. The deepest work for us to do is to wake up in our life because we want to have a conscious transition. And a friend shared with me yesterday or the other day, she watched the George Harrison documentary, and I haven't seen it yet. But she said there's this quote where he's being attacked, and he says, Wow, is this how I'm gonna die? And then he says, Well, I guess I better get busy letting go of this life so I can step into the next one the way I want to. Or something like that. I'm paraphrasing. But I just thought that was so beautiful and so profound and so true. And that's what awakening is. Awakening is staying awake in all conditions of your consciousness, in all levels of your being. And so you can invite more and more of this lived present moment to just flow through you like I am right now as I'm speaking. I'm not using a script. This is not AI. This is human intelligence, human divine intelligence. HDI. Which we all have inherently wired and built inside of us. And we don't want to get to the end of our life and just realize, wow, I didn't, I didn't do it. I didn't live the way I really knew I wanted to live. I was afraid of my dream. Going back to the beginning of this conversation. Because going toward that dream requires courage. And courage means to be of heart. So whatever that being of heart means for you is your courage. Showing up again for life, showing up for joy in the midst of sorrow takes courage. Standing up for yourself takes courage. Speaking up against injustice takes courage. Confronting it takes courage. So there's all these different types of courage, of being of heart that we can adopt for ourselves and we know which ones are true for us. So this has gotten to be a pretty deep conversation, but I just really wanted to share this. It just feels like such fire in me right now. And in the Gospel of Mary Magdalene in Discourse 3, she says something that's really profound, and I don't see it discussed in a lot of places, but she she's quoting and she's saying to the wrath of the soul, the wrath and the power of ignorance that is judging her. It's saying, like, who are you? You you've done this, you've done this, and you've done this, and labeling her as those things. And then she says, Who are you to judge me when I do not judge myself? Yes, I've done, yes, I've done this, yes, I've done that. But I do not judge myself for those things. And the message in that is profound. When you don't judge yourself, nobody else can. Because you're standing in your sovereignty, which then gives you the courage to be of heart to step into what that is that's calling your soul that you truly just want to say yes to. And maybe you don't have to think of it consciously because it's really about a it's a state of being. And so that not judging ourselves is power profound work. And it's deep forgiveness work of self. And that is a whole other podcast topic, so maybe they'll make that the next one how to forgive yourself deeply. So that you can step into acceptance to receive all the love that love has for you. It's so beautiful. And so I will close by offering that beautiful practice I just shared to you. I've been doing this every morning in my meditation, and it's just so open, it opens your heart so much, and you're allowing, you're allowing and creating space for the possibility of the creator, of the source, of the field that is alive, that is God's source energy all around you to answer that, to answer you at the level of your frequency and begin to do the work inside that transforms you. We ourselves don't do the transforming. That's the same energy that makes the plants grow. That's the same energy that makes a baby grow. That's the same energy that transforms us. We just allow it. But then we have to accept it within ourselves, within our nervous system. And that's why we do the nervous system work. That's why somatic sounding works. And that's why voicing like this meditation I'm going to give you will work. So this is your affirmation to practice in meditation. Inhaling, you just hold at the top briefly, and then you hug yourself as you exhale. And so you do this with your arms open and you say, I accept all the love that love has for me. And you give yourself a big hug. And then you open your arms again really wide. I accept all the light that light has for me. And give yourself a hug. A little squeeze with the hug, and just feel how you light up inside loving yourself like this. Open your arms wide. I accept all the truth that truth has for me. Give yourself a hug. And just sit in this practice, and it feels so good. It's a somatic self-love practice that invites the true nature of what God is into your being because this is what you are, and it will resonate with the truth of who you are. And it's through doing practices that we teach our nervous system that we are a safe space to receive more capacity of this light. And in order to create space and receive more capacity, you have to clear out what is stuck and stored in that spaciousness of you that blocks the flow. And you don't have to do that intellectually. You do it through sound, through drumming, through art, through hiking, through walking, through getting it out of your body in whatever way feels good for you. I invite you into the sisterhood where we do practices like this together. I post a weekly lesson and a practice, and then we gather together once a month for a deep dive into that month's theme, a live practice together, and then a sharing circle. It's a beautiful ceremony. And I invite you to join us in the sisterhood, and you can find it at thatmystic.com. Love, peace, and well being to your soul, to your heart, to your physical incarnation. And next week I will go into a deep dive about forgiveness. See you then. Bye, loves.