SPEAKER_02: 0:05

Hello, beloveds. Here we are rolling into mid-December already, and I apologize for not having an episode out, but I have been in a very deep, very profound integration period that has had me now arise back up from the depths that I've been in of stillness, contemplation, with a seven-episode initiatory journey that I'm going to be sharing on my podcast for women who are crossing the threshold. Because we are entering into a profound shift in the consciousness of humanity. And there are about 20% of you out there who are really, really feeling this shift because it's your divine design to experience it. It's what your soul came here for. And so these episodes are going to be for these women. This is exactly what my soul came here for. For those of you who wonder and know what it is, I carry the right angle cross of the sleeping phoenix, which is the energy shift that is happening in the consciousness rolling into now, starting around the solstice through 2027 is when it kicks off for the masses. So I'm early, I'm always early for things, and I know that some of you are too. And this is a very difficult initiation period and initiation time that so many are about to go through. And because I've already gone through it, I've gone through the three levels of awakening. I'm going to start talking about it so that I can share this with you, so that your transition into your new and true self, your truest self, really, it's not even new. When you get there, it feels so familiar and so at home that it's like, oh, I don't know what was so hard about that. Honestly, I know that sounds crazy, but it's true. And I've moved from mental awakening, and you've probably listened, if you've listened to my podcast for a while or followed me for a while on social media, I've shared my awakening public. And I'm supposed to do that. I'm designed to do that. I'm coded to do that. I do it for the collective. And I've moved from that head, that mental awakening of ideas, new ways of thinking, new ways of talking to myself, new ways of new levels of self-awareness into the heart opening that happened last February when my son died. And that burst my heart open, so open. And then I'm now, in the last few months, I'm moving into a somatic, deep nervous system, embodied awakening. And what I've come to realize through that is to really understand through the lens of the Aramaic cosmology, which I've studied and shared about for a long time now, that they did not divide the body, the being, the human into systems. It wasn't like your mind, body, spirit, soul, emotions. It was all one unified being. And now I'm really understanding that level of teaching in feeling myself now as one unified being. And that when I heal something within me, everything within me heals. And that's true of you as well. And so for these seven episodes, I'm going to be talking about today, the moment of the unraveling. And that's what we're going to discuss today on the podcast. The next episode is going to be grieving the self you were never allowed to be. And I've talked about this now for a few years. And again, it's moved from the mental idea of it into the heart of it, the grieving of it, the feeling of it, into the nervous system of it, where now that the grief has passed, it's the stepping into it. And then we're going to talk about when the body becomes the oracle because our bodies are wired to awaken, and our bodies are our spiritual intelligence. It's a spiritual system. Then episode four, we're going to talk about the rise of the non-guru leader, and that's going to be many of you who are going to be stepping up to be teaching and showing the masses who will begin to awaken in 2027. So there are some of you who will be doing this work early as I have been. Episode five is going to be the cosmic shift that you can feel in your bones, and we're going to be talking about what's happening in the astrology in 2026, 2027. And it's going to blow your mind. Episode six, we're going to talk about the new leadership, will be coherence. And I've been saying this for a few years too. It's going to be coherence, not performance. So it's going to be when you feel like a you feel called to leadership, but you don't want to lead in the ways it's been done. We're not going to do it in a masculine way. And episode seven is going to be crossing the threshold where you really go through the rite of passage with this. And so today I want to dive deeper into the first episode, which is the moment of unraveling in this seven-part series that I'm going to be recording and having out before the end of the year. So that'll be about two episodes a week. All right, so let's talk about the moment of unraveling. And this is a transmission for people who think they're falling apart, but you're actually coming home. And I want to assure you of that. Because there comes a moment in every awakening when the life that you built to survive can no longer hold the truth of who you are. We cannot live our path of destiny in a self that we've built in density. And I want to say that again. And these are all of the things that we said, okay, I need to go learn tremendous compassion. I need to learn empathy. I need to learn kindness. I need to learn curiosity. I need to learn strength. I need to learn how to sit next to somebody who is sobbing and not feel like I need to do anything to fix them because I'm uncomfortable with their feelings. We have to go through these things ourselves so that we can hold space for it. Because as a leader of the new earth and the people who will be awakening and the people who are going to need you, you can only take people as far as you yourself have gone. And so we're going to feel this shift that the life that we've built to survive can no longer hold the truth of who we are becoming. Our life will become way too small. It's like a butterfly literally bursting from the cocoon. And our body will feel it first. A quiet shaking happens inside of us. Something starts to loosen. And we feel this tenderness rising beneath the armor that we've built to survive. And it might feel confusing, it can feel like overwhelm, it can feel like way too much. But what's happening is that the false self is collapsing and the real self is surfacing. And your body, your intelligent system, not just the mind in our head that our Western culture has worshipped that tries to explain everything. Our body is a brain, it is a mind, and it knows what's happening and it knows the difference. So I just want to invite you to take a breath right here. Wherever you are, take a deep breath in. And just exhale and let your shoulders drop. Let your jaw release the tension you've been holding there. And let your nervous system hear these words. You are not lost. You are mid-initiation. And you may not have realized it until right now. There's a doorway we all meet at the end of who we became to survive. And it's the doorway of the beginning of who we actually are. It doesn't announce itself. It doesn't arrive with clarity that you can see it. And it often opens through unraveling, things falling apart. Deaths, divorces, devastations. It's an unraveling of our old identity, an unraveling of our old belonging systems. And definitely an unraveling of a false self that you stitched together just to make it through. You feel it as questioning everything. You might feel it as grief. You feel it as the rising ache in the chest that's whispering, there's got to be more to me than this. I feel something more than this. I feel a calling in my life, and I don't know what it is. I feel a purpose in my life, and I want to find it. Just stay with that because that whisper, that ache, that longing, that calling, that pulling, that urge is absolutely holy. It's your soul. The ache is direction, and that grief that we experience is intelligence. And we've been taught in our Western culture to not sit with these feelings, right? We're taught to distract, to shut it down, to suck it up buttercup, or to fix it. And we are taught to fix it, depending on how you solve problems, right? That we patch it, we try to push our way through it, we try to perform our way out of it, we try to ignore it. But you who are called to be initiated early into the new earth that is being born. You're here because something in you refuses to pretend anymore. There's something in you that's so tired of being who you needed to be. Something in you is ready to become who you really are. And this is why everything feels unstable. It's why the mind is loud, but the body is louder. And it's why the places that once felt safe for you now feel too small. They feel out of alignment, they feel out of integrity. Because they were built for the version of you that's dissolving. So just place a hand on your chest right now because one of the most important things in this dissolving, it's not easy, is giving yourself self-kindness. And when you do that somatic motion of placing you the warmth of your own hand on your chest, breathing into it, and I will often put my hand on my chest and I'll say, It's okay, babe. You got this, babe. Or sweetheart. I call myself babe or sweetheart. I invite you to do the same. It feels really good. How you would talk to your best friend. It's okay, babe. You got this. This is hard, I know. But something beautiful is being born through it. Just feel the movement beneath your palm of your own chest rising and falling. And not the breath, but feel the shift inside of you. The ancient part of you rising. The memory of your own inner authority waking up. The clarity that doesn't speak in words, it speaks in sensation inside of you. You feel it. It's frequency, it's vibrational, it doesn't have words. And this is your body remembering something that your mind doesn't even know. And the life that you've built to survive is not wrong. It wasn't wrong. You didn't do anything wrong. You didn't do anything wasteful, you didn't do anything shameful, you didn't do anything to regret. It was all part of the growth process. And now, as we step into this time that we are stepping into, it simply can't hold who you are becoming. And you can literally look at your body as undergoing a metamorphosis. I call it a mystical metamorphosis, that you're awakening your spiritual intelligence. And there is a moment in every initiation when the ground below you disappears, when the map fades, and when the identity that you learned to rely on doesn't work anymore. And that's the moment that you realize you are changing. And this is that moment for so many of you. And so I want you to know that this is your nervous system reorganizing itself. This is the truth of your true nature dissolving the distortions. This is your sacred self emerging. And this is the threshold of your deeper awakening. And you're standing in the doorway between what was and what will be. Just breathe with that for a moment if you're feeling these words intensely. Feel the air into the body that's no longer willing to lie, and how beautiful is that. Yes, it's scary, but only at first. Feel the exhale as you release what was never yours to carry. Feel the steadiness beneath the shaking and the fear. Unraveling is not a collapse of your system. It's intelligence and its initiation. And why I'm recording this is to let you know that you are not alone in this. Across the world, women are waking in this same hour, feeling the same ache, hearing the same quiet truth rising from beneath the noise. I'm not who I once was. I'm not yet who I will become, and I'm somewhere in between, and something very sacred is happening here. This place, this doorway, this trembling when you don't know, this soft undoing or violent undoing sometimes is the beginning of coherence, the beginning of embodiment. And my sweet, sweet sister, it is the beginning of your real life. So just stay here with yourself, stay with your unraveling long enough to hear what it's trying to give you. Because beneath the disorientation, beneath the grief, beneath all the shaking open, there is a beautiful presence emerging that is truer than anything you've ever performed. This is the return, it's the remembrance. And this is the moment, that threshold moment where your life truly begins with the purpose that you came here for. Before we close today, I want to share something new that I'm offering that I've been using for myself and have been testing out on a few friends who have just blown me away with what they've said. It's something that I've never made available in this way before, and it's called a Divinely You Soul Decode Session. We will sit together and look at the divine blueprint that the creator placed within you, your emotional coding, your leadership frequency, the gates and channels that make you who you are, and the deeper purpose your life has been moving you toward. It's not a reading that tells you who you should be. It's really a remembering, just like I've said here, of who you really are. If you've been feeling the shift and if something in you is waking up, if you're starting to sense that you're definitely here for more, this is where we decode the exact way your soul is trying to express itself in this next important season of your life. So if you're curious and if you're feeling that call in your body, you can book your Divinely You Soul Decode session through the link in the show notes or at that mystic.com and it's right there on the front page. And I will see you, beautiful souls, in the next episode. And until then, enjoy this song that I wrote. The lyrics are by me, the melody and rhythm I came up with, and then used AI. Oh my gosh, I love AI for spiritual purposes and extensions of creativity. Helped me to create this beautiful song. You can listen to the entire album everywhere, literally, that you listen to music under that mystic joia as the artist. All right, my loves. Enjoy the song. Something is waking up in me. And until next time, I wish you a blessed week.

SPEAKER_00: 20:00

Then fear something I bury just to survive. I feel the tremble, I feel the shame, I feel the truth, I'm able to live. Something is waking up in me. I've tried to stay the same, try to hold myself to kill the way I was taught. But the ocean is cracking from the inside. It doesn't hurt, it feels inevitable. Like on like deaths to me, like I've been asleep for centuries, and I'm finally ready to open my eyes. I don't need to understand it. I just need to breathe. The body always knows me for the mind. Something is waking up in me. Something holy, something fierce, something ancient final. Remember my name. I feel the tremble, I feel the cold. I feel myself becoming something is breaking openly. If this is the beginning, I surrender to it. If this is the threshold, I step through it. If this is the rising, I welcome it I am really even if I'm trembling. Something is waking up in me. Something sacred, something true. Something the world has been waiting to hear. I feel the tremble, I feel the light, I feel the phoenix pulling me alive.

SPEAKER_01: 22:28

Something is waking up in me.